Read my soap opera

Hey y'all! I don't know why I said y'all, I never say y'all. Anyway as I sit here in my cozy bed with my cup of of tea, I think about this next post. It's been a minute since my last posting. Sorry about that! I was trying to figure out all the kinks, but I think we've finally got it figured out! Anyway in my introduction on my page, I told you this year I'd be taking on some new adventures. Wellllll, it being November, they have already started. In August I auditioned for the theatre department at my college. I ended up getting a part in a play! YAY! Yeah it was amazing! I had so much fun. In August I also started my acting class and that has been an AMAZING journey as well. I have officially decided that I am going to pursue acting. Yes. I know. You're probably thinking that I barely have any experience, it's a hard field to get into, I've never done this before what make me think I can do it now? You're probably thinking I suck. Well guess what. I've heard all these things before, from me. I've already tried to beat these things into my brain over and over, but my heart just didn't want to listen. There is something about acting that makes me feel alive. I feel like I'm living instead of just existing, for the first time in my life I'm not thinking about the future and wondering if I am going to get everything I've ever wanted. I'm not thinking about the past and wishing I could go back to the days when I still believed I was safe and nothing bad could ever happen to me! I'm finally focused on what's happening right now. I'm living in the moment and I am living my best life. Now you are probably wondering how can you be living your best life? You're a broke college student that lives in a depressing one bedroom apartment. You can barely afford rent and groceries some months and hate everything about being in school. Yes this all is true, but I'm thriving, I'm learning about life and myself, I'm reinventing myself, I am finding new passions and interests. I am figuring out what I TRULY want out of life. I am growing. I am becoming the badass woman I always knew I was. It just took sometime to figure it out.

The truth is I am good. I have what it takes. Could I be so much better? Absolutely! But you gotta start somewhere. This makes my soul happy and why not follow that and see where it leads me? Maybe I will become a famous movie star, a regular TV series actor, who marries Micheal B. Jordan, has beautiful babies with him, spends my time off taking vacations with my family, traveling the world. Maybe this will work out, or maybe it won't. But we won't know until we try. Someone once told me that "you are only confined by the limits you put up yourself" Well I'm done confining myself by what society says, what my mom says, what my friends say, what I say! I'm going on blind faith and trusting God that what is meant to be will be! If you want to come on this journey with me then lets do it! I promise I will let you guys in on every awkward, amazing, horrific, terrific, embarrassing, extraordinary, vulnerable detail. I am an open book so if you have questions or comments leave 'em on the page! I'd love to hear them! If anyone has advice, I'd love to hear it!! I hope this blog and my journey/life will inspire you to do whatever it is that lights your soul on fire! Guys, this is going to be an adventure and an interesting one, so come with me! I promise to keep you entertained!

-xo Mar